only a pawn in their game


It’s been a sort of strange and unfocused few days these days: I left the river to go to Jackson to meet up with a new fellow-traveler who got laid low with asthma at the last minute and had to cancel. Somehow the combination of being far from the river, needing to re-calibrate my plans, and being in an actual city again, has put me a bit off balance.

I spent an excellent evening reading stories by Eudora Welty in the Jackson library, which has been named after her. I was given a tour of her house the next day by two lovely ladies, I stayed in a pleasant state park right in town, I hung out at an excellent cafe in a house, so there are many rooms to choose from to sit and drink your coffee and read or write, I bought some books at Lemuria Bookstore (“capitalism at its most transcendent”, David correctly describes it), I stood in Medgar Evers’ driveway where he was shot and killed in 1963.

One of the docents at the Welty House reminded me of a Southern version of my mother: she was wearing a scarf of that exact style my mother excelled at finding: artsy and unique, not something you’d ever see in the pages of Vogue or at Bergdorf’s, but probably just as expensive. And she let me know in a million small ways that she recognized me: she told me of her time in NYC as a young woman in the 60s, generously complimented me on my neat appearance for someone camping every night, commented on my handmade Irish sweater (brought home by my mother from a trip to Ireland in 1967); “each one unique so that they’ll know the drowned man by his sweater if not his face when they fish him out.” She told me about Eudora’s first love: “he lived for fifty years with another man,” she said, looking at me steadily. And when I said I was going to Medgar Evers’ house, she told me there’s a whole tour of civil rights sites around Jackson, “if you’re interested in that kind of thing.” If I were Eudora Welty, I would definitely put her in a short story.


I headed back out to the country on Thursday, to Poverty Point, an ancient Native American site in northeastern Louisiana that flourished for more than a thousand years. I was completely alone there, and wandered by foot and bike all over the place in the late-afternoon light. It is structured as a series of long concentric half-circles that radiate from a center mound which is in the shape of a winged bird. I made a big circle around to the main mound, where I walked up to the head of the bird and down again, and then pedaled around the mound itself and climbed up to the body. Standing there, I had a glimpse of something very powerful, a sense of being sheltered — held — in the body of this giant effigy bird, and close to the ghosts of all the people who had scrabbled in the dirt to pile up and carry soil, basket by basket, to build this sacred place.

We human beings are miraculous and pitiful creatures, all of us. And I think of a line from a novel of Penelope Fitzgerald’s, not about people building mounds, but about young actors putting on a show, but it’s all the same thing, really. It’s all the same thing. “Happy are those who can be sure that what they are doing at the moment is the most important thing on earth.”


4 thoughts on “only a pawn in their game”

  1. Hello friend!
    If you’re still there and have a chance to read Kevin Sessums book “Mississipi Sissy” it has some amazing descriptions of his time in Jackson in Eudora Welty’s house. She was one of his mentors.
    Get back safely – soonish, I think?

  2. Eudora Welty — Was a time I read all the Eudora Welty I could get! But I haven’t returned to her. Maybe I should try her again.

  3. I didn’t know they had turned Miss Welty’s house into a public place. I lived in Jackson some
    thirty-five years ago, in her neighborhood. I used to run into her in the grocery store.
    (that would have been the Piggly Wiggly on Fortification.

    I’m so glad you got to see Poverty Point. Why do you suppose was the intention of the effigy mound?
    It’s one of the biggest earthen constructions by paleo-Indians, and basketfull by basketfull must
    have taken years to complete, the whole population of those people intent upon a task that,
    at least to us, would seem to be fairly meaningless. I mean, the bird is certainly a symbol of
    transcendance of some kind, and it is,or was, a bird, as you can see in an aerial photo.
    Here they are, begging the eye of the diety. We just assume it as if it was ours.

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